昨晚又發生sick moments!!!
It feels horrible, 雖然唔係乜嘢大事，係病人嘅norm. 但我差不多要公開求安慰。
I know I shouldn’t be angry or sad as I did nothing wrong. I wasn’t perfect as a patient, but this is all the most normal, It’s just part of being sick. But still, felt absolutely shit.
Both physically cuz of super low n high but also emotionally. Emotionally, as if I could have done better somehow.
見到有朋友去完一拳推介這本書「每一次流淚都是值得紀念的時刻」
我未睇, but it's so true, 不過就算我哋知道流眼淚是好的，but i feel like 我哋都會潛意識suppress 自己咁做。下次去睇吓先，virginia 話我可以帶多啲貨去，是我自己製做給自己的值口。
還要把一幅畫拿去清明堂，探探莘堯姐姐的表哥，還要去莘堯姐姐的派對。
今天，要乖乖在家，畫畫。
雖然我已經好勤力畫畫，但個 to-do list 長期都長到嚇死人。
但我是超鍾意的, just let me draw!!! 所以有時感覺畫畫不是我的「工作」
去游水跑步更像工作。雖然我成日講起病人的daily，因為是生活的一部份，但潛意識其實很不想講起，可能覺得會令人uncomfortable， 佢哋可能會因為唔知點樣回應, but this could be another silly misconception i have in my mind, and certainly something that shouldn't be the norm.
There are so many beautiful things and people in my life, but still there are times I felt things are too much and impossible, both sides are equally strong.
But at least today, I feel loved, and has so much to look forward to. Will start with swimming and drawing, it'd be EVEN BETTER IF IT WERE SWIM CLUB BEACH SWIM seriously!!! Yv and i said we need to train for winter swim XD
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