八月

時不時會想起每年的八月二十七日，整個八月我都在想了，那是我跟喵喵相遇的日子。對了，我發現我個IG近日好多小草的fans, 喵喵啲fans 呢？去晒邊。

我好少提起，但大家應該記得，喵喵年初時病了，係膀胱發炎，小便有血，在這種薑色男仔貓好普遍的，通常係壓力引起，那時剛巧我家小狗Rosie剛去世，他自BB已有Rosie, 而我好肯定他最愛的其實係Rosie, 總是找值口要依偎着她。

好多朋友都分享自己家的動物因為companion animal 去世而大病一場，喵喵在這半年也看了無數次醫生，驗過血、小便，照過x光等。但其實這半來一直沒有好過，小便仍有紅色；今次再看醫生是因為他瘦了很多。

我很喜歡他之前的醫生，也相信其實都真係壓力問題，今天見了另一個更有經驗的醫生，也是說一樣的東西，他說貓貓受壓，其實比我們想像中普遍得多（這個我也知道，年中見不少）

那不要緊，再慢慢來吧。

遇見這隻頑皮喵是在兩個颱風間的一天，我填了表想做狗狗暫託家庭，但剛巧他們急需人暫託這三隻即將要死的唐貓仔，我連佢哋係乜嘢樣都唔知，就去了接他們回家，最後只有我家喵喵捱過來，亦因為他，我才開始在LAP 當foster coordinator. 

上周我去了瑪麗醫院覆診，因為在公立醫院每次都會見不同的醫生，他們不會知道太多，我提起我以前會做的事，沒想過說起時竟然眼泛淚光，怎麼會的。除了愛我的朋友們，除了每天能夠做運動等等，我覺得喵喵, Rosie 和小草也有很大很大的影響。

有些事情在struggle 之中，實在很難看到盡頭，我不會說我現在沒有struggle, 但是因為以上提及的人和事，我感覺那種彷彿不會過的困難，原來也有overcome 的可能性。

On retrospect 好多人都話 they didn't know he had such a love for Rosie, 我總會答 I knew it all along, especially now you look back at the pictures, they are together in every pictures, he seems to think he need to guard her... or bully her, put his arm around her , or sleep with her, or sniff her. i am pretty certain he likes rosie most in our whole home, and I knew it all along, we just didn't say it out loud, because we refuse to believe that.

德國

 

I don't know why I feel so touched about her case, I nearly cried. 

This little girl was a secret rescue, so I am breaking big rule to post a snippet on my own instagram. When she was first rescued, both her back legs were so deformed, blood profile had multiple red flags, anaemic, she had no hair over her bones, it's likely she had a bone fracture before, I read on the vet notes, and, she had no good teeth to eat. 

Still, her foster family brought her home, one day, he told me she has fell in love with her and want to bring her along to Germany, but in two weeks time! 

I told her it's not optimistic but we can try our best to help, Ann helped to ask AFCD internally to speed up license changing, I endured a few stressful lashed out from her hahaa, she was the one who screamed at me asking why we sent her to middle-of-no-where ridiculous place To Kwa Wan to pick up license; the experience at vet was miserable, the vet said there's no way she can go through health check for flying. I was not optimistic i helped her look for back up foster already. 

Never thought she was so determined, and then after many back and forth calls, she sent a picture in-cabin flying together with them. Like experienced sa jei jei, I knew things aren't all clear yet until they actually arrive at home, but they did >.< 

And doggie is now running freely in their garden in Germany. 

She sent me a very very sweet message, "You are amazing and perfect in all the information, without you I could not have done it seriously. Your knowledge to the process helped alot, cause I had difficulty understanding the process from different pet relocation companies and finally I just decided to do myself. You are the best dog volunteer in hk over my 20 over years here never met you hope we can one day 😊 You are truly a dog lover 🐕❤️❤️❤️. Thanks so much again Connie take care 🙏🙏" 

Actually, she was the one who did all the hard work. My work is also just so minimal, as compared to many many volunteers who pick a lot more poop than me, spend elaborate hours talking with rescuers and adopters, debunking myth, or getting their hands full of mud and blood from taking in abused, neglected, animals. 

Maybe sometimes I cry because I feel like the animals really deserve all the love, but so many human beings still don't get it, and still live in a very human-centric way. And dogs and cats that come in this state is not just one in a million, just while I was writing this, we had an even worst case that had to go to vet this morning, and many that for different reason we couldn't post openly.

驚青

You know what we're like now, we are like our parents' generation, that can only spend a lot of time saving money, before they can go on ONE special journey. A lot of people in our generation has been so used to travelling, and all of us suffer immensely during covid 19, first world problem for SURE! But to look at it positively, I guess it's a good time for us to savour the memories of our past trips bit by bit, and also carefully think of how we want our next trip to be, instead of just hopping on a plane as a way to avoid real life problems. 

[Eng below] 今早，見到黑色唐狗Amir反肚子的樣子，我感動得差點要哭出來。又收到Anna 的foster 的文字和短片，她之前一直被放在家外，過着有一餐無一餐的生活，沒有冷氣，只有蚊叮蟲咬，還要被人欺凌，結果這兩隻唐狗都是負着大傷，被救到我們那裹。

黑色唐狗Amir 就有bone fracture, 有人叫我們慳錢，直接amputate 算，但在醫院住了一段時間，已經有明顯改善了。

黃色唐狗Anna 被救回時要做手術，聽說本來的主人因為懷孕而不再有時間理這五隻狗，任由他們在外面生活。不過暫託爸爸說她好乖，現在見到任何人都好熱情，真的很難想像他們曾經是住在外邊多年的流浪狗。

On the other hand, 今早剛巧見到有人領養了一隻害羞BB 唐狗，好大壓力，text 我們的dog trainer 說覺得自己還是搞唔掂一隻rescued dog..... 

所以，其實你去買隻名種狗也有機會是勁害羞，也有機會有重病，而領養一隻所謂traumatized 的動物，也有機會是性格勁開心的。

Amir always had this scared look, but just the first day since discharging, he was stretching out his legs, and rolling his belly up for rubs, I almost cried seeing it. 

Was so touched seeing Anna's foster's message & video too, both Anna and Amir were adult mongrel dogs, that lived a tough life outdoor, water and food were only given from time to time, always in heat or in cold, itchy from fleas and insects, and worst of all, both of them were victims of bullying, both came to us with a big wound and required expensive surgery. 

Foster said “She greets me with a very waggy bum every morning! A wonderful sweetheart! Just adores attention. Every time she met new people at my apartment, within two minutes, she scratches at them for attention haha ❤️” 

On the other hand, I heard yet another person who said they think they "cannot manage a rescue dog" (after adopting a shy puppy.... but they have met the puppy before...at least they reached out to our positive reinforcement trainer) 

Said it many times, but even if you go buy at the most expensive breeder/pet shop, there's still a chance your dog would be super shy or have serious illness, while even seriously "traumatized" animals can have sweet and outgoing personality. 

喳喳

泥米之家/ 泥漿浴場 - 要開幕喇
圖: 大嶼山水牛阿妹、鼠屎仔、喵苗Meowsie、聖雅各藝想的薯蛋人，狗仔小草，野豬。

總之，我今天要看一些文件，畫一幅五加皮酒樽到達上環時檢驗的情況；一幅墳場； 一幅下雨天的畫等等。但結果，首先畫了這幅完全唔關事的畫。

在陶泥工場裹：驚青喵喵推大嶼山水牛阿妹出去練泥，剛去世的屎仔從天堂給力，驚青的小草裝死希望無人見到佢，野豬也是驚青的躲起來食草。

四周有泥屎飄揚, 喳喳淋泥漿浴，喳喳糖水等緊你。

對，你們聽不明白我們說什麼是對的，以上是我跟藝想員工開會後的對話。

你記得「我們的故事」嗎？就是昨天提到那個在灣仔電車站的project, 我知道我講幾十次啲人仲係好confused, 所以我次次都要repeat, 藝想是一個以智障人士和自閉人士為主的陶藝工作室，那兒的師傳仔都是大人，有很多做陶泥近十年了，他們的作品都好專業，什至試過到韓國、日本展覧。過去兩年，他們跟社會上不同人士合作，就是「我們的故事」呢個project, 每一對師傳仔+ 社會人士都做了不同的展品，在灣仔展示。

現在我們正在談未來大計，其中一個部份可能跟動物有關，所以就畫了這幅畫，動物練泥呀。

好吧，我還是先回去畫真的練泥，龍窯書中那些。

藝想師傳仔做嘅嘢喺佢哋石水渠街地下嘅展覧館都有得賣㗎，仲好平㗎添，如果你識咗我咁耐都仲未知藝想係乜，真係不能原諒呀。

泥漿

Junior Patient Diary

噼嚦噗咯在泥漿浴裏

Just left QM, the nurse is cute like a white haired doll, (not young but still can b cute)
so, you probably heard this many times, but even though i tried hard to be a good patient, but things (on blood test) just aren’t good enough. 

(Fact 1: Stress is REALLY bad for you) 
(Fact 2: Quantitatively we are not at a position we can just ignore, we need to address the problem) 

Sadly, I also can’t think of the reason why it's not good enough too, as compared to more stressful time in life, it shd have been much better now. 

But it’s ALWAYS like i presented them a challenge. (Not 一次半次，係次次）

Actually i feel bad for them too, no matter at private doc or public hospital i can feel that they really used their heart to think, read and ask, but there’s some missing puzzle, and i’m already using the best med tech support possible. 

I try (my best within my ability) to eat and exercise well, and not be too stressed, Obviously far from perfect, but perfection is not always a good thing too. 

Of course i can lose more weight, damn the body evaluation they said I'm overweight as an asian ._.  (a little, numerically) (me: but actually i am a fat pig -_-")
You know my friends are never ever convinced about this when I tell them!! 
Covid19 times just reli made exercise harder, suddenly went from swimming everyday to no swim 😭😭😭
💉💉💉makes you fatter,  but nurse today said medicine is more important than losing weight!!!
Sometimes i feel bad for them, cuz when they see other patients they might feel a little frustrated as many patients, never took the "normal advice" to stay healthy, but at least they can provide them a clear way forward on how to improve their health. 

But looking at me they might just feel “i wasn’t able to help her” ._.

Setting a shorter time frame is a good idea. 

At public hospital, you see a new doctor/nurse every single time, I mentioned briefly about.. what happened in the past, I can't believe I almost cried when trying to casually mention it, I didn't cry of course, but it was true difficult. And she suggested me to volunteer and help other patients! (it's always been one of my dreams!! But I was too scared to ask her to introduce me to) 

Note: I am not asking for advice, this is my junior patient diary, but if you want to help, you can exercise with me haha. 

On a more positive note, I was so happy chatting with Kar po this morning, the whole plans on our next collaboration were so exciting, as usual, collaborating with them last time was already so great, dream like! And the next part also feel extremely exciting, dropped by to LAP centre this morning too. 

Also got an invitation to draw another community map, drawing just makes me sooooo happy. 

另外，我之前咪給藝想嘅師傳仔寫咗信嘅，今日收到回覆呀，你唔好以為給他們寫信嘅programe 就係話寫就寫咁簡單，佢哋話「萬事起頭難🤪🤪同事要拍晒片教佢地影佢哋封信。但係佢一路都影唔到相嚟⋯ 又教佢哋點樣用WhatsApp傳文件。」她說超級佩服佢哋同事嘅耐性。

藝想嘅師傳仔雖然係「仔」但其實都係大人來的，主要都是智障或者自閉人士，但好多做了好多年陶瓷，高手到曾經在外國展出。去年畫灣仔的地圖就是幫他們的展覧畫喇。

不過他們現在都要困在家裹，好可憐呀。

小狗

如果你有睇我嘅IG story 都知，過去一個星期在animal rescue side of my life 好像幾瘋狂，有好多古怪棄養個案，又有斷了腳骨的狗狗，有很可憐的貓貓因為舊主人延遲送往獸醫，當場死了，還發惡。有人棄養了一隻小狗BB，因為他天生腦創傷，可能活不了很久。

今天終於有些開心的事。

有隻好漂亮雪白的舖頭狗，因為店舖結業，狗狗將無處去，成日唐狗總是較難找家，想不到不夠一分鐘就找到一個暫託家庭。

又有一個舊的暫託家庭message 我，她曾經暫託過多隻狗，最後領養了其中一隻，她說她常常想起我，領養了那隻狗狗是在她們家中發生過最好的事之一。她丈夫本來因為她要暫託和領養而很不高興。但丈夫近日竟然跟朋友說起：「收養了這隻狗是這一年在他們身上發生過最愉快的事。」

我記起她當初做暫託家庭時其中一個我遇過問最多問題的family, 我差點放棄她。好彩無咋。我跟她聊起她的第一隻暫託狗odell，她說最想念她，我就即刻message 了她的領養人，嘩，她長大了好多，領養人竟然也說謝謝我們，狗狗跟小孩子很夾, are now best friends.

這個暫託家庭又去探了她另一隻以前暫託過的狗，後找到forever home, 那隻狗立刻就認得她們 "She recognized us immediately and she wouldn’t let go of sandeep & me. We all went for a walk and she would keep coming back and hugging us literally and making these noises that she used to make as a puppy. er moms were amazed!! Apparently she never made those noises before. It was just amazing to see how she recognized us"

After a crazy week, I can almost cry now. 

Swim Club 同學S 都算係個新朋友。

他爸媽有養狗，他自己都好想養，幾個星期前說若養的話，佢想要corgi, 我話現在shelter 都係乜嘢狗都有，但係我哋遇到嘅corgi statistically 都係十分之難搞，同埋個個都係想要corgi, 所以都好多人爭的。 依家centre 都有一隻，成日都多人問，但因為佢性格sensitive,/unpredictable, 要好有耐性，又會咬人，所以就一直未有人要。 我有跟他提過香港繁殖場都好殘忍，好差嘅都有，而且不是一個半個罕有嘅case, 相反，其實係成日都見到好多全身都係尿屎，皮膚病，跛腳，無牙，然後被遺棄嘅狗。佢就問係唔係要從外國嘅breeder 買比較好。 swim club P 同學都在場，佢之後就話「希望你有天說服到佢」 我時不時都會post 一啲我哋嘅new intake, 例如昨天post 了可憐斷了骨的Amir，所以今天見到呢毎個朋友佢就自己同我講話「我諗我應該搞唔掂一隻rescue 狗，因為就算以前養狗都係爸媽湊」我就話其實我哋charity 都有好多好多正正常常年輕可愛，乖巧嘅rescue 狗㗎～唔一定係咬人同埋斷腳，只係你睇我個ig 會見到呢啲㗎啫~ 其他都被秒速領養了。同埋你都諗住生仔，點會覺得自己湊得掂個仔但湊唔掂隻狗呢。

上周，有人突然要離開香港，想把她的暫託狗狗帶埋去，因為時間很急，七天後就飛，我哋已經好盡力幫她，但最後佢隻狗都未能同佢一齊飛，狗狗還是好弱，其實她本身該不是壞人，只係每次對話開始時，都會好𤷪，例如我哋一天內幫佢搞好了一些文件（在疫症期間真的不容易） 但要她親自去afcd 攞，土瓜環，司機唔識路，佢好嬲，問我做乜要send 佢一個人去啲咁山ka la 嘅地方，後來佢都知自己發惡唔啱嘅。（當時我諗，土瓜環不是全香港的中間咩） 其實成日咁𤷪有乜好呢？ 佢又問我點解一早無話佢知隻狗狗身體弱，我話我有，佢話佢有我哋啲wahtsapp conversation, 我話我都有 -_-" 佢後來都知係佢錯。

事實上我是不相信報應，不信做好事會有好報的。

所以上面所提及的感動小事就當係reward 㗎喇。

Last but not least, at the same time, Ann sent me update of 薄扶林小貓飛吉斯，真係大難不死的小貓，長大成漂亮的孩子了. I feel like i can cry now

狼來

 

今天正修改智障人士生死教育那書，剛巧一個朋友在IG 說起她昨夜沒睡，這半年來，她一直照顧患末期癌症的爸爸，不時要出入醫院。

零晨四時，仍要醒着，因為爸爸不定時叫喊，她說，以往都是因為要換片而叫，不知多少個晚上，未可以一覺睡至天光，未睡足就要上班。近日更是每晚睡不足三小時，近日她的爸爸神智比之前亂，她說自己跟妹妹就好像在經歷可怕版的狼來了故事。

現在不只是幾次，而是一天二十四小時每隔一會就叫。有時叫得好慘好大聲，但又聽不清楚他在叫什麼。她們都心知是步入最後階段了，她說爸爸自己都控制不到。

我覺得她真的很厲害呢，這樣說好像好得罪，但也是千真萬確的事實，很多人願意不眠不休地去照顧也會哭一日弓日BB，但就不願意照顧曾經照顧自己嘅父母，好像好理所當然的事，但其實係十分罕有。

我就只曾經照顧病的小動物（和病的自己）今天看見一幅舊畫，很想念小Rosie, 她臨死前的八個月，每個月夜晚都會全身 epilepsy 一次，就算她不癲癇發作的夜晚，依然會很擔心，因為不知道什麼時候會發生。狗狗癲癇正式發作的時候，它們會失去知覺，摔倒，全身繃緊，也可能會大小便失禁或瘋狂流口水。

那幅畫是畫Rosie在寵物店，我總是覺得她在繁殖場已受這麼多苦了，應該可以享多點快樂時間。近日因為疫症，因為我在LAP 當foster coordinator, 天天都收到陌生人打電話來問foster 的問題，大家都係想要年輕細狗；亦間中有些人打來時其實是上一隻狗剛過身「所以不能再養老狗，不想再面對離別」雖然Rosie 比我認識嘅大部份LAP 狗都短命，又腳跛又無牙。雖然我想起她仍會好傷心，但我一點都無後悔沒有選一隻年輕點，健康點的狗，我每天都慶幸我們找到大家，雖然只是兩年半，但讓她過了快樂的兩年半。

正在照顧爸爸的朋友說：「我琴晚有想起你，想起你畫幫狗狗療傷。呀爸個pat pat 都因住院而損爛左...我要幫佢換片勤啲，同埋要幫佢處理佢pat pat 既爛促。」

佢咁辛苦仲想起我 -_-" 

也許外面也有好多像我這位朋友一樣的caretaker, 做caretaker 真的很不容易，啲人成日話他們都該有自己的support group，也是真的。Sa 姐姐就話：「面對這種生死的仗，心態好緊要，有戰友都好緊要」她朋友的丈夫幾年前因癌症離世，當時她曾經搬去她家住了一年！好厲害，但也一定made a huge difference. 

Wish we could do more for them. 

耐性

呢啲唔係trending stories, 但同樣係好重要.
不過相比做動物嘅議題/保育, 好多人眼中，呢啲可能真係minority 中嘅minority issues, 但其實他們都是完整的人/生命來的，每個都係獨特的。

在香港，智障人士亦面對老齡化的問題，試過有智障人士家人相繼離世，但從來無人跟他們解釋家人失蹤到那裹去，葬在那裹，覺得他們不懂。近年就有社工專做這方面的工作。

因為這個project 的出現，有些患末期癌症的智障病人能夠在臨離世前完成一些願望，有一位就希望跟以前的院友party, 唱K （他們都好愛表演唱歌）在那個party前，他一早畫好了幾十個蛋糕，因為最愛院舍中的生日會，他想在自己離開後，朋友仔都仍然可以每年收到他的生日蛋糕。

「有個別智障人士，不適被送到醫院後，因為是陌生地方，連上醫院病床都會驚(無人話佢知做D 咩) 公立醫院又無時間，就只能叫你回家。如果有好啲嘅預備，大多可以成功完成檢查。」回家後待下次再去急症室，可能已經太遲了。

「如果一次FAIL，醫生未必再寫紙做檢查!
近日，其中一個院友因胃痛，滿頭大汗，前晚送入了急症室，之後唔肯做X-RAY，醫生話冇事俾左胃藥送回舍，之後量生命表徵唔達標準，面色蒼白，精神也模糊，再入急症室，即時搶救，及即時做手術，現在又入了lCU。」

這個project 的出現，是希望多啲前期教育，最起碼可以增加治療的成功機會率。第三本就是關於自己面對end of life時的情況。

呢排除了畫香港龍窯的書的插畫外，又要拎返呢個project出嚟改。有啲人可能覺得好CLS點解改極仲做緊呢幾個project, 但我成日覺得做書係要有咁嘅耐性，我有時都會好𤷪㗎，九成身邊嘅人都係會話「點解你仲做緊呢個project」而我編輯就喺我同人哋面前話：「貓珊，你太心急」所以我同我編輯做「最後的告別」那本書做咗四年！！

好似你睇落唔會睇到我改咗好多張畫，因為好少嘅細節對佢哋嘅理解嚟講都係重要的。

我要俾多啲耐性改先得。

蘋果

今早整！個！social media 都係買報紙嘅香港人。有一六點去買，有人五點去買，有些報攤天都無光就賣晒。

大家都很傷心了。做別的工作也要辛苦地找力氣出來。

其實也不是什麼一覺醒來世界變了，因為早就變了，這一切都係預料之內，但發生時仍時那麼傷心。另外亦為有些人的醜陋而感到很傷心。

我覺得坊間嘅人總覺得蘋果嘅記者唔認真（even up till now, 有啲唔熟呢行嘅人都仲會咁諗）但我識嘅蘋果記者同攝記都好勁。

在去年的protest 時，他們很多都開了自己的專頁，記下前線的故事，很感人，都是與人相關的工作。剛剛見到其中一個說要把專頁關閉了。很傷心。她本來做副刊及人訪，但去年六月開始寫埋港聞，誰跟誰還在她的頭版出現呢。啲攝影記者都係好認真的，從來唔會話熱、大汗就影少一個spot. 

超級低氣壓，大家都抖不過氣來。

昨天也一口氣畫了很多幅畫，讀報紙的。

關於龍窯的泥土的。
智障人士生死教育project要做動畫，所以畫了很多小人和車給他們用。
還有給聖雅各藝想師傳仔寫了信。因為這班智障或自閉的陶藝高手，近日都困在家了，好可憐。

Sa姐姐說，就是想我們驚，感到無助，所以我們更加要有信心。

走難

*Swim means Heart bursting with joy*
Fun facts I learnt from today, very useful for 走難, as world might collapse anytime. 

1 - Dog paddle - It was the first swimming stroke used by ancient humans, believed to have been learned by observing animals swim.Prehistoric cave paintings in Egypt show figures doing what appears to be the dog paddle
2 - The dog paddle has also been taught as a military swimming stroke when a silent stroke is needed - since neither arms or legs break the surface - ok i need it when 走難
3 - A old couple on a homemade boat suddenly appeared next to us, their boat were "made" by two standup paddle boards really - useful for 走難

Forced abstinence from swim for a week now. The last swim was at Turtle Cove Bay, the first day the beaches had to close, where stairs were all tightly wrapped by plastic tapes, and police patrols the sand to prevent people from gathering on the beach. (But people are allowed to gather at the restaurants drinking without masks along the beachside...) 
ANYWAY, we had to run our way into the water, or along the outside of the shark net, if you really want to swim, that's the only way, and seems like there are a decent number of people that are seriously looking to just have a serious swim. 

Beaches are still tightly wrapped, and completely deserted. We decided to go for the non-gazetted/non-government governed beaches. It was so refreshing, the water was clear all along the south side today. 

+ water clear
+ secluded like a private beach, just waiting for someone to open an illegal bar 
+ extremely happy doggie hopping into the water, joining us to swim, more like we joined him. 
+ swim club Porsche 
I didn't know (or maybe I knew) swimming can make me so happy, i wonder why that is. 

疫症

因為疫症而不能見面的人，實在有很多很多。

其中包括我婆婆，在家中大家都叫她波女，她小時候在石龍生活，爸爸經營做鼓油相關的生意，她在十兄弟姊妹中排第二，在那個年代已有讀書，懂得寫字。有次我們倆一起到李鄭屋的泳池報名學游水，其他婆婆不懂得填表，她幫了她填，就一直成為朋友了。

公公在她四十歲左右就因肺癌離世了，那時第四個孩子（即是我舅父）才三歲，是第四個孩子才是兒子，大家口中的公公都是大好人，我媽媽和公公都沒有吸煙，但都有肺癌，該是遺傳的。（我媽媽幸運發現得早，康復後仍一直在醫院的癌症病房做探訪的義工工作，但現在亦因為疫症而暫停了）

他們以前住過九龍和大坑兩邊的木屋，試過火燭，看住火遠遠燒來，要把家中的東西一件一件搬往遠處的小山丘。後來又住過大坑的木屋，公公在清風街一間印刷廠工作，所以媽媽他們的出世紙上父親的職業那欄是"Printer" 好像epson printer 那樣 :P 

小時候，爸媽工作忙碌，我很多時都跟波女一起，但我在她房間會畫污糟啲牆，所以她常常說細我一年的表妹才是又乖又靚女，反而我會因為媽媽離開而大哭，總之她說我是十分之百厭啦。

那時她住藍田村，常常買砵仔糕回家。

她以前跟日本人工作，所以家中煮的餸都是幾十碟細細的，wide variety, 這樣子很好，我很喜歡。雖然她有一個very depressed side (you can't blame her really) , 但其實也是一個十分搞鬼的人，總的來說很斯文，很內向。

我媽媽幾姊妹讀完小學就出來工廠工作，儲到錢，就會backpack 幾個月，坐火車去新疆等，婆婆從來不擔心佢哋去咗邊。舊式的屋村，大家都開住門只有鐵閘和一塊布，偶然鄰居間會有罵戰。

我們用一塊拾來的木板放在床邊，做滑梯。

以前家中的貓小B 曾經把她的觀音打跌咗。

早前我曾經upload 過她畫的畫在ig story 個個都好鍾意，所以話，有時都唔一定要技巧好高才是好的啊。

廢墟

我昨天嘗試在我那部有十四萬張相的智能手機中找一張相。

怎麼可能。i agree with you. 怎麼可能有咁多相，仲要中間有兩年嘅相係唔見咗的。

結果當然係掛住睇第二啲相，完全分心了。

主要是以前返工的相，(因為大家每次都仲問 :P ) 以前我的工作是做舊建築修復的，當時是香港唯一一間專門做舊建築修復的"clinic" 現在很多外國/本地建築公司都會做。我們的客人有中式村落的屋主，也有政府的heritage building. 

我們的工作很像偵探，因為我們會把那座房子的所有raw history 都找出來，本地的、外國的archive, 報紙、信件，舊相、舊地圖、口述歷史、書、舊日記等。

也是因為我以前的工作，我才開似香港不同區的故事地圖（同埋成日諗點解我哋細個無讀真正嘅香港歷史，昨晚我們龍窯開了一個小會，carmen 就係講緊呢啲everyday life history才是我們普通人的故事。）

有啲相好靚，所以想同大家分享吓。

另外有啲新界屋主早年移民了到英國，入到間屋好像frozen in time, 啲衫仲掛喺度，好像當時left in a haste 咁。

另外，綜合我過去post 過呢啲舊工作相嘅記憶，個個都淨係對堆木櫈最有興趣 XD 

禁忌

雖然係咁講，但我仍然會好掛念Rosie, 她在訪問中也有出現。我覺得喵喵也很掛念她，畢竟Rosie在喵喵BB 時就來我們家了。近日在整理網頁 (https://www.studiomaoo.com/) came across 好多舊的東西包括訪問。
不是因為疫症，我們還會做很多Book talk和 Animal Rescue related 嘅talk, 去年LAP就在學校和公司做了七十個動物有關的talk - 講點解要領養，動物是從那裹來等等。
這是其中一個關於「最後的告別」那本繪本的訪問
【Change Maker】生死教育難啟齒？她用繪本打破死亡禁忌 ​ 隱形香港 撰文：陳嘉茵  香港繪本作者Connie，在創作關於死亡繪本《最後的告別》期間，聽到不少令人心酸的故事。她指出，每個人都一定會面對死亡，何不利用以死亡為題的繪本，打開討論之門，為隨時來襲的死亡，及早作出準備。
好多訪問都做好幾個鐘，講到最尾仲要拍片，仲要重覆講返同一句嘢幾次。我時不時覺得記者真係好辛苦。本來已經面對不同嘅陌生議題，然後又要趕deadline, 又要寫字，依家仲要拍片 :O 然後那篇嘢可能出一個星期(什至是一天）就無了....（現在尚算可以在網上重看）
另外又提醒我，我還在做三本跟智障人士解釋生病與死亡的書，只係做咗頭兩本還未做第三本，還是要快點去跑步後回來。
by the way 本書是木棉樹出的，所以賣得很便宜（只係$42) 因為他們一直希望所有孩子都能買到心愛的書，平日百幾蚊一本繪本對很多人來說實在太貴了。
好多地方都有得賣，突破書房、見山、誠品、三中X，什至HKTVMall : )
好想念rosie 她是好好的孩子。

木船

昨天不是在談以前的船嗎。偶然在看船時came across 這件事，也夠奇怪。咁得意嘅事我差啲笑不出來.... 有餘暇做這種怪事也是很幸福的事對吧。
「1968年8月16日下午, 兩名派駐香港的福士汽車香港總代理「捷成車廠」的德國人，乘坐一輛改裝好的甲蟲 ( 封密車底和車頭行李箱，後置引擎加裝水上螺旋槳及尾舵) 橫渡了維多利亞港.  車尾牌上的「Hong Kong or Bust」是指他們在尖沙咀出發，可能會到達香港，又或沉沒大海. 結果他們成功從九龍藍烟囪貨倉碼頭駛至銅鑼灣吉列島登陸，全程共廿七分鐘。」
今早起床想起去年我們常常因為世界的事太歪曲，而要圍爐。現在因為social distancing的原故，爐也不太可以圍了。
又想起光子さん的廚房，我們在走路能及的魚市場買東西做天婦羅。
想起小村山後的森林。空氣清澈的日子。
偷偷話你知，我仲有好多old hong kong 船嘅相。為什麼船那麼fascinating.
包括punting, 我們以前說要做punter, 在river cam 賣雪糕。我哋話會好好賺的。