又發現不止香港人不明白民主與民生的關係，原來很多內地年青精英真的在完全不同教育下成長。出於好勝或真的看不順眼，遇上他們問問題，總會花無限時間坐在公厠外、巴士上跟他們解釋 - 試過有成功的，亦試過被人罵。記得反國教時說過，戰線就在身邊所有未覺醒的人那裹，一直都相信這一點。況且收集更多人觀點能讓自己思緒更清釋。
記得一周前的今天，正為找不到合適的書讀而絶望懊惱 - 還在午飯時間專程到又一城書店碰碰緣份，最終卻連旅遊書都拿不上手。一周以後竟然發現四周都是想買想讀的書本。想重新拿起詩集 - 讀過往沒有讀過的諷刺時弊詩; 想買那本國際雜誌，認識世界各地民生民主狀況; 想買起舒巷城整套書，閱讀不同年代香港人的困局 - 你一定不知道，我已經沒有看香港史書一段日子了 - 遮打革命未必使我們重燃對這城市的希望，但讓大家看見追求公義的路上，香港人並不孤單，讓我們看見這城中仍滿載充滿同理心的人。一直香港人都被認為是自私的，但不止一個人跟我回憶起那天催淚煙下，人們不單沒有恐慌逃亡，反而返轉頭幫助其他被撀中的人離開的情景。只要試過親身爬過barricade的另一邊看，都會受小孩子的努力和微笑感動，都一定發現香港這次是令人佩服的。(從來以為barricade這一個字只會在孤星淚中出現，講了整個星期仍覺得超現實。)
可憐的香港人、自小接觸西方教育卻被中式政權管治。現在既回不到過去，亦不想回到過去。當革命不能戰勝極權統治，該如何面對呢? 人數大概是重要的，不止是示威者數目，還有在社會上各行業中思想相同的人(啊，令我想起紅花會 - 這裏要有黃傘會) - 教師、老闆、作家、牧師、政治「家」、明星等。例如這次要圍堵政總，建築師朋友便立刻利用建築處網站找政總仔細圖則，偵探式搜查政總下有沒有秘密地道通往解放軍總部。要為持續抗命爭取更大本錢。
這運動其實一直靜靜爆發，沉默戰鬥者就在身邊。街角巷尾社區文藝市場天天發芽，孕育出一個又一個社運討論區，而且這些小巷咖啡店、城中探險隊或街頭讀詩會有增無減。在獨裁政府運行下的城市，這群「隱形勢力」也暗暗鑄造出一套新規矩和獨有的價值觀/力量。
若文革花了十年才成功地排除異己，統一人民思想 - 我們亦能訂下相約的時限(或者永遠地相信着)一直相信和感染身邊的人，或許能有一點成果。這可能是一場意識戰，故此需要含蓄而有耐心的人。一邊守護當下擁有的言論自由和法律體制，同時不忘不讓Yeats說中"the best lack all convictions."
大家正傳閱華盛頓郵報，一篇以「香港人面對現實吧」為主調的新聞訪聞，文中結尾指香港孩子在兩種極不同的思想「結合」下，或許只能選擇移民。的確，面對無聊無理的政府，口罵「你估我好想瞓街咩﹖」的街頭朋友都時會說「大不了便走吧」。但其實走得出來，心裏對這城市都有愛，更何況，雖然我們都曾於外國讀書，但你以為要離開你的家人朋友和文化是這麼容易嗎? (對，這是在移民家庭的貓小姐理直氣壯的問你。不過，她都不是不打算走的。)
這是一場漫長的戰爭，魔怪不是突然出現，善良公義社會亦非一天能夠建立，但我們能在自己的能力範圍內堅守。街上路障被拿走的同時，記住要好好建立心裏的防守，守護自己相信的。
"Today's generation faces all this and says, "I don't want to spend my life the way my family and their friends have. I want to do something, to create, to be me, to 'do my own thing,' to live.
The older generation doesn't understand and worse doesn't want to. I don't want to be just a piece of data to be fed into a computer or a statistic in a public opinion poll, just a voter carrying a credit card." To the young, the world seems insane and falling apart. On the other side is the older generation, whose members are not less confused. If they are not as vocal or conscious, it may be because they can escape to a past when the world was simpler. They can still cling to the old values in the simple hope that everything will work out somehow, some way. That the younger generation will "straighten out" with the passing of time. Unable to come to grips with the world as it is, they retreat in any confrontation with the younger generation with that infuriating cliché, "when you get older, you will understand." One wonders at their reaction if some youngster were to reply, "When you get younger which will never be then you'll understand, so of course you'll never understand." Those of the older generation who claim a desire to understand say, "When I talk to my kids or their friends I'll say to them, 'Look, I believe what you have to tell me is important and I respect it.' You call me a square and say that 'I'm not with it' or 'I don't know where it's at' or 'I don't know where the scene is' and all of the rest of the words you use. Well I'm going to agree with you. So suppose you tell me. What do you want? What do you mean when you say "I want to do my own thing.' What the hell is your thing? You say you want a better world. Like what? And don't tell me a world of peace and love and all the rest of that stuff because people are people, as you will find out when you get older - I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say anything about 'when you get older.' I really mean to say anything about 'when you get older.' I really do respect what you have to say. Now why don't you answer me? Do you know what you want? Do you know what you're talking about? Why can't we get together?
And that is what we call the generation gap. What the present generation wants is what all generations have always wanted - a meaning, a sense of what the world and life are - a chance to strive for some sort of order." - also Alinsky
"Today's generation faces all this and says, "I don't want to spend my life the way my family and their friends have. I want to do something, to create, to be me, to 'do my own thing,' to live.
The older generation doesn't understand and worse doesn't want to. I don't want to be just a piece of data to be fed into a computer or a statistic in a public opinion poll, just a voter carrying a credit card." To the young, the world seems insane and falling apart. On the other side is the older generation, whose members are not less confused. If they are not as vocal or conscious, it may be because they can escape to a past when the world was simpler. They can still cling to the old values in the simple hope that everything will work out somehow, some way. That the younger generation will "straighten out" with the passing of time. Unable to come to grips with the world as it is, they retreat in any confrontation with the younger generation with that infuriating cliché, "when you get older, you will understand." One wonders at their reaction if some youngster were to reply, "When you get younger which will never be then you'll understand, so of course you'll never understand." Those of the older generation who claim a desire to understand say, "When I talk to my kids or their friends I'll say to them, 'Look, I believe what you have to tell me is important and I respect it.' You call me a square and say that 'I'm not with it' or 'I don't know where it's at' or 'I don't know where the scene is' and all of the rest of the words you use. Well I'm going to agree with you. So suppose you tell me. What do you want? What do you mean when you say "I want to do my own thing.' What the hell is your thing? You say you want a better world. Like what? And don't tell me a world of peace and love and all the rest of that stuff because people are people, as you will find out when you get older - I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say anything about 'when you get older.' I really mean to say anything about 'when you get older.' I really do respect what you have to say. Now why don't you answer me? Do you know what you want? Do you know what you're talking about? Why can't we get together?
And that is what we call the generation gap. What the present generation wants is what all generations have always wanted - a meaning, a sense of what the world and life are - a chance to strive for some sort of order." - also Alinsky
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